Today

Today was a day of closure for me. Sometimes in life we meet someone at the wrong time, then you reconnect and it’s the wrong time for them or they’ve moved on. When I was younger I used to ask myself, “Why aren’t things going my way?” 

Now that I’m older, I say to myself, “Life is full of revelations and reconciliations, everyday, but they’re just not how or when I would have wanted them to happen.” 

I think letting go of the idea of it all is the most painful part. But I’ll be OK, sometimes it’s better to not backtrack around corners that have been turned. Sometimes it’s better to turn the page to see what’s next, even though you loved the chapter you just read and you want to read it over and over again. 

Maybe now I can give other opportunities a chance. Maybe I can have a clean conscience and all its blisses. Maybe I can let go. Maybe, just maybe, my heart can be forgiving enough to thank them for doing me the favor.